Emma Hansen is an author and model whose blog post about the passing of her first son, Reid, due to a true knot in his umbilical cord, went viral in 2015. Her debut memoir Still: A Memoir of Love, Loss, and Motherhood, expands on her experience.

Today, Hansen is trained as a full-spectrum doula and offers education on the realities surrounding loss and grief. She lives in Vancouver, Canada, with her husband and sons.

Still: A Memoir of Love, Loss, and Motherhood

  • CBC Books 2020 Selection
  • Globe and Mail National Bestseller
  • #1 Amazon Bestseller

On the day before her first child, Reid, is due to be born, Emma Hansen wakes up and knows right away that something is wrong. Doctors confirm her worst fears: her baby has died, and she will have to deliver him, still. From the depths of sorrow, she emerges into a kind of motherhood she never anticipated, where grief and confusion intertwine with an enduring love for her son and the desire to ensure he isn’t forgotten.

In Still, Hansen opens up about an experience shared by millions of families yet rarely talked about. As she details the unique heartbreak of mourning a child who never took his first breath, and the delicate balance of hope, fear, and happiness when she brings her second son into the world, she confronts both our societal discomfort with grief and her own struggle to embrace life in all its uncertainty.

Strikingly honest, uplifting, and told with grace and sensitivity, Still is the story of one woman’s search for meaning in the face of one of life’s greatest challenges.

Published by Greystone Books

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